Well this is really long, but it's kind of worth your time. So you should all just read it. Because I said so...

Today, I opened up my blog, pressed the little pencil icon and looked at the template. "What to write... whatttt toooo wrriteeeeee" (I literally thought it, just like that) So I think I'll talk about life. Just to fill everyone in.

I've been getting a lot of kudos from people whom I wouldn't expect to read my blog. And it feels great, honestly, to be thanked or given props for your ideas and bravery to post your ideas on the web. I recommend blogging, to everyone. The thing about blogging, is it's typed. You can think about what you type. No scribbles, backspace. No mistaken words, you know what you want to say. And say it. If you don't like it, revise and edit it, before posting. And it's your opinion. It's nice to be able to just voice your opinion without people stopping you, because they don't like what you have to say. No one HAS to read your blog, but when they do, and they understand, it's exhilarating. Seriously, guys... It's actually addicting to see your number of viewers go up and up, every time you post. Try it. (:

And then the struggles. I have massive amounts of homework. On top of the bit drama I'm dealing with. I have those people I walk by in the halls where it's just like "Awwkkwarrrddd" and I turn bright red. And there are the things where I just want to sit down and cry. My life's in a weird place right now, and I don't know how to express how I feel, really. So I'm going to leave it at this; don't be afraid to be you, for that itself, shows a weakness that others will thrive on. Write a list. Not of all the bad. But all the things you're proud of, happy with, excited for, love, enjoy and make you smile your life, or even about yourself. Two lists (one about you and one about the broader thought of life) works well, and when you're down, look at the list, and remember why a smile is better than the tears. If others are worth your love, then you are worth your own. Happiness isn't always your first choice of emotion, but it's always AN option. Even in the worst situations. And if you ever need someone to talk with, I'm always here. Thought to some, I may just be a random teenage girl in Washington, to a lot of you, I know I'm a friend or acquaintance. And guess what? I'm always here for you. Here, facebook, via text or email; even in person, I want to help.That's the point of this blog; to relate to you, and help you through the years of teenage life and self doubt.Wow, I'm sorry this is so long guys.. let's move on.

Sunday is my birthday. I don't know whether to be excited or slightly disappointed. As I've gotten older, my presents have gotten less exciting, my parties have gotten suckier and my spirit has gone down. I'm hoping my 15th will revitalize my feelings, because my 16th is going to be amazing. Anywho, to any of my readers, whom share a birthday with me (or within the next few days) happy birthday! :D


Almost old enough to drive...
xoxo,
Marjean.♥