I know, I've already blogged today.. and that might be enough for the average person.. but I'm kinda.. really anxious to get this out there... So now, onto a different subject, kinda. Boys.
There's this one... We got really close. He's so sweet and caring and compassionate. He's Christian (like me), musical, and just freaking cute. I could go on and on about him.. but I won't. (: Unfortunately, he moved to Korea for family reasons... I don't know if he realizes it, but I love him to death.. And the fact that the next time I might see him is after we die (which is FOREVER from now) hurts me so much. I wish he'd open up to me and tell me how he feels. I just want to understand him....
And boy number two... He's kinda... I don't know. Super sweet, caring, ect.. but there's these things, that just aren't okay for me right now. And I can't just tell him to go, because I care about him so much. He's an amazing person, and so caring towards me and others. I can't just break things off... Dilemma. :/
And boy three... He's just great! We haven't known eachother long, and he doesn't seem to notice me as "pretty" or even flirt with me.. But maybe the fact that he's never had a girlfriend contibutes to that. He's nerdy, and quirky, smart and funny.. He just amazes me. He's not afraid to be himself, and that alone makes me like him. (: But I just wish he'd realize me, because right now, he's the guy of choice, because guy one's in Korea, guy two just isn't working... and Fred's in a different state. I wish he'd notice me too... (:
And finally, Fred. (: You've all heard about him, right? If not, look at my second post.. You'll figure it out there. (; I can't wait for him to come back to Washington... (:
So now, you know what's going on with my life. No, I'm not an attention whore, whore in general, slut or skank. Even if it looks like it, I'm not. I just... I don't know. I'm a teen, my life is confusing. Try being me for a day.. You still wouldn't understand.
But that's my life with boys, right now. I'll keep you updated. :P
With love,
Marjean. ♥
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