Hope...

So, my life's kinda really hard, right now. I'm not going to go into detail.. I don't even want to try. But it just is.

My family's between a rock and a hard place, I'm stuck in a mind cloud, and I guess I'm just a little.. lost.

So, I turned to a friend. One that, through good times and bad, has been there. Though we've fought, we seem to just re-connect. I think it's because, we both had hard lives, growing up, but in so many different ways. And we've made such different things of ourselves, but still know what it's like, to be that lost, helpless girl, crying for help, and turning to the person who gets it. SHE get's it. And through the fights and tears, we seem to still realize that, which amazes me. And she's FINALLY got her head on straight, I think. Fantastic. ♥

ANYWHO. Today, this friend of mine... brought me to tears. She told me that she was wrong, essentially, and thanked me for never giving up. And she told me how her (and her father) think I'd keep her in line. The sister she needs, not the ones she has. She offered a warm bed, and a soft pillow, to me. Knowing, that that might be my reality, some day... I broke down, a little. Sometimes, you treat the things you love the most, like crap, just to see how long they'll last. Kind of like crash testing. Making sure you're worth my time. Well, Miriah, I think we've done enough crash tests. I think we're finally ready to cut the crap, and be friends. No more fights, and maybe even full custody?(;

And now, I want to thank YOU. For never giving up on ME. For always knowing, caring, and trying to help. For being that sister, I've never had. The one I'll fight with, but still love the next day. For your open arms, and tiny, bony, yet COMPLETELY comfortable shoulders to cry on. I love you.


And to anyone else in my life. I cherish the little things. Thank you, all. For just.. being in my life. Existing. You make my life POSSIBLE to live. I really mean it.

You ALL give me hope...
xoxo,
Marjean.♥