Today, like I said in "Pushy...?" I vowed to be quiet, unless a person chose to speak to me. I kinda messed up, a few times, but overall, I achieved my goal. I marked my hand with red tallies, showing my crime (or in this case, mission) plainly like the wearing of the scarlet letter.
On average, I think I talk to at least like 50 people.
Today? 28.
Usually I talk to quite a few sophomores and juniors.
Today? 3 sophomores, 1 junior.
I guess this makes a statement, though my data could be off, due to other's attitudes, I think it'd probably be pretty consistent, if I continued on like this. Maybe I should. Yes, the strength to talk to people, approach them is a very strong, and powerful trait, but I feel like it's time for others to "grow a pair" per say, and talk to ME first. I think I've shown the world I care, just by talking to people the way I do, and to all the people I talk to/try to help. I think it's time to take a little break, and see who really cares.
And another thing, I'm not going to be so forceful with guys. I got 1 hug today. Seriously. I try to hard... today was a bit of a wake-up call.
Not to mention the fact that my smile and loud nature are for sure my band-aid. I'm loud, because if I'm quiet, I think, and I feel like crying. I smile, because it keeps the tears from falling. I hold it all in, with a smile and laugh, and not having that for a day is torture, in itself.
Well, I guess I'm off....
With a new mindset, and a little sadness,
xoxo,
Marjean.♥
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